I'm very disapointed in the blog.....

Petey was home to great me with lots of wags

The california boarder

Lexi, me and Erin on my last morning

Blaze, Lexi, me, Erin and Rick at AJ's right before we took off

Nicole, Joleen, me and Heather on my last night

I know, I know it's been months since I have posted anything. Things have been so crazy for the past few months. I was studying non stop for the LSAT for months. Well, I am happy to report that all my hard work paid off and my score was awesome. After all the studying came the packing and the moving. Now I'm back in California, right at home and ready to start law school. I quit my job packed it up and shoved it into a uhaul. I made a lot of really great friends in Arizona so it was hard to say good bye. But even with those awesome people in my life, I felt as though I was in second gear, reeving up to switch to third but never able. I never quite made things click for me there, so despite my second thoughts I knew that coming back would be the right thing to do. I have to say that Fresno hasn't changed much except for a few exceptions (like a new Ruth Chris, woohoo!). I can't wait for school to start but I guess I will just pass my time subbing and serving. Enjoy some pictures of my last days in AZ and our road trip back. Sorry the pictures are before my post, I can't figure out how to move them and I'm getting frustrated.

It's back to school....

Oh and you know what that means, traffic, school buses, kids every where on cell phones, kids every where in line in front of me at quick trip, kids driving (did mention I hate teenagers).

I have to admit I'm jealous, I wish school was starting again for me, but I have to wait another year before I start again. Also since it's back to school for my mom, each day I look forward to my 7:00am phone call. She's always good for some big brother talk and some bitching! She doesn't know that I put her on speaker and keep on with my business. I just occasionally say "no way", "OMG she is a bitch", "your so right I totally agree" and we have a great conversation. I don't mean any disrespect, I love my mom. I wish I had the courage to tell someone they were a fat bitch to their face, but my job is not in a union so I am forced to bite my tongue and go on with the work day.

Now I've begun car pooling which so far is going great(I don't start until tomorrow so really I'm not sure how it will go). Let hope it ends up saving me gas. So I keep putting it off until the latest possible time, but I have to study some problems for the LSAT, I really need to sign off now.

Dear ladies who wear cheap perfume.....

You know who you are. Well maybe you don't because you don't seem to notice that you have marinated your self in cheap Avon swill. Each morning your arrival to the office is announced 5 minutes before you walk in by the rolling wave of stench. I am instantly afflicted with a migraine and I want to puke. I wouldn't mind as much if it were channel, but the latest fragrance endeavor from Shaina Twain just isn't doing it for me. It smells like peaches mixed with Vagisil with just a hint of soap. And lunch OH I loathe lunch, for when you return your sent will be renewed with strength. Please don't as me for help because if I have to enter your cubical, I might pass out. If I do please call my emergency numbers and let my mom know what happened. And please remember this; a perfume shower doesn't actually count as a shower.

The dog days of summer

Summer is in full swing here in hell, um well, I mean Phoenix and it couldn't be hotter here. My ass is sticking to the couch. And my boobs never stop sweating. I feel as boiled as mister lobster up there. I am constantly questioning my decision to move here. Why oh why??!! I recently returned from a 10 day trip to Washington DC. Besides the blow out fight I had with my sister (we didn't talk for two weeks after), the fight with my mom, the complete lack of sleep (my mom snores like a lumberjack, literally, my brother and I were awake all night), the trip was lots of fun. Each year in the summer my mom attends the RA (represenitve assembly), for the National Education Association (NEA). The NEA is one of the last unions with any power in the United States. I try to tag along when I can to take advange of the free room, and sometimes free food, and getting to spend time with my mom.

Blaze and I squished in a cab, with Blaze looking great!! The three of us in front of the White House
Awesome Capital fireworks!!
We had a great time! It also makes me sad because I know the days of family vacations are going to be few and far between. Jade didn't even come with us so we were already one short. Hopefully we will still have more good times together. Oh by the way the lobster was one of those great meals we had together, it was really awesome!! Maybe it's not so bad if I become my mother. Besides the crazy, she is ok.

It's finally happened

I have officially become my mother. While shopping, driving or working I find myself thinking, "Am I the only sane person on Earth?". I have made myself the champion for truth, logic, sensibility and reasoning. I can't stand anyone. The other day I was at the pool at my apartment just trying to enjoy the sun and my book, and these two retarded girls came in. They kept incessantly squawking on and on about babies and other things that I have no interest in. I couldn't read my book I couldn't think. Their ridiculous babbling was like nails on a chalk board. I wanted to drown them. And then I thought "Oh god, I am my mother.". The thing is it didn't take me two husbands and three kids to get there. The really scary thing it that I am starting to believe she is right.

My brother forwarded me a video at work today. I was footage of an elderly man getting hit by a car. After it happen the bystanders and the other cars did nothing. No one did a thing, they just stood there watching this poor old man lying in the middle of a busy street dying. They stood there gawking like people watching monkeys in a zoo twiddling their thumbs while a fellow human being lay in the street not 3 feet in front of them. My brother and I talked about people. About the world. The stock market looses 300 points today, the dollar is worth nothing, citizens in Connecticut watch a man suffer before them. And then I ask myself, "Am I the only sane person on Earth?"

The last day of tollerable weather

It has been unexpectedly cool today. No I don't mean like that's totally chill I mean the weather. For some reason it is raining. The forecasters said this would be our last day of nice weather ( and by cool I mean 75, very cold for Arizona), before the triple digits start. It's expected to be over 100 by the end of the week. I hate Arizona. I know people say you get used to the heat but that's a lie you don't. It's unbearable and for some reason I have a feeling this summer is going to be the worst. Turn your over to 400 for like 10 minutes, then open the door and stick your head in. That is how it feels to walk outside in the summer here. But to celebrate the cold I made some brownies. I miss grass and trees and roses. I miss my brother. Oh well got to go, Hells Kitchen is on!!

The Sage Woman-celebrating the goddess in us all

So I was always wondering who would be self righteous enough to have a blog about themselves. But since more and more of the people I know have blogs I thought it might be fun. Yes its true most of them have husbands (or wives) and children to write about, but I am a fun single girl with lots to say. And what better way to get my message across than an obscure blog no one will read, right?

Anyways as you may know I finally graduated from college. Yes I know what you are thinking, "Sage just graduated? No, she is so intelligent and successful". Yes those things are true but I am also an expert procrastinator. I was hard finding the time between checking Myspace and my TIVO, but I'm finally done. I thought it wouldn't make much difference in my life, but to be honest I have never felt better about myself. I finally have a real plan for the future and I am ready to get on with it (more on my plans in future blogs, sorry you will just have to wait). Hey I'm not getting any younger.



Some recent events in my life have really put some things in perspective for me; my grandma passing away, my graduation, one of my best friends getting breast cancer, some of my other friends dealing with a child with an illness. All of these things have perhaps made me feel as mortal as I have ever felt, while giving me an overwhelming and incredible sense of hope and determination. I feel like the stars have aligned for me and suddenly things feel very clear. Not to say I am not nervous, but I know what I want in my heart. I know that I have to follow my dreams and suddenly I feel the courage to do so.

On another happy note my family was here visiting me two weekends ago. It was so wonderful. Having a baby sister is so great. Berri is just so amazing. I just can't get enough of her. She is so smart and funny and boy does she have my dad wrapped around her finger.



And finally, last Friday I received an unexpected gift from my mom. A book called "The Sage Woman, find the goddess in all of us.". While most of it is about surviving menopause (thanks mom!!, not that old yet), there was something really awesome in it that I am practicing everyday. It is a ritual to crown yourself Queen, and it goes like this;

I am Queen (insert your name here)
Queen of myself
Ruler of all my domains
Manifestor of my fondest dreams
Executrix of my own will

So please celebrate you goddess, if don't who will?